Hi!

My name is Ty. I'm a 20 year old Colorado native. I'm an artist, a minimum wage worker, and a lover of life. I'm also an assault survivor, a suicide survivor, and anorexia survivor, and a lifetime sufferer of depression and anxiety.


I'm tired of those labels being defining characteristics of who I am. I'm tired of being a victim and a sufferer. I am starting this project because I realized life is too short to waste hating myself and being sad, and then I started to realize that I have the tools to help myself. Once I started to heal, I looked around and realized that there were a lot of other people in my peer group in the same pit I was in. I started to wonder of the things I tried to do for myself might help other people, or at least help them get pointed the way they want to point.


I do not claim my ideas will work for everyone, and I DEFINITELY don't think they're a magic cure. Everything I'm doing and have tried to do has only worked because I genuinely wanted to get better. Depression is kind of like an addiction with how seductive it is, and the only way a person can truly start to heal and continue to do so is when they themselves truly want to get better. I'm hoping that for those of us who want to feel better and move forward, but don't know where to start can maybe some passive direction in what I have to say.


This blog is about self reliance and self-love. I will be posting challenges, things to think about, coping mechanisms I use, and things to brighten your day a few times a week. Take from them what you wish, and feedback is much appreciated. I want to learn from you too!


Thanks guys!


Love, Ty

Friday, May 16, 2014

How I Feel About This Movement

When I realized that I love myself, it became easy for me to let toxic things slip out of my life. They were feeding my demons, not me. Once I stumbled across the secret they were keeping from me, that I AM a wonderful person worthy of love, things I used to put myself through suddenly seemed ridiculous. Toxic people I used to love suddenly became easy to not only resist but completely release emotionally. Procrastinating the things that are good for me, like exercise, artwork, and cleaning my space, became abhorrent. Every day it gets easier and easier to sing, even when there are people around, because I love singing and it lifts my whole being, regardless of how unskilled I am. My default mood is calm and happy, instead of sad or anxious, and it's not nearly as hard to get back to "ok" as it used to be. It feels unbelievably good to know that when I freak out or get stressed, I will be able to make it back to ok and not be stuck in that mode. This is a feeling everyone deserves to have. This kind of inner peace is the kind of happy no pill, no material possession, nothing else on this earth can fill you with. It's not wild and fiery, it's not fragile and desperate, it's solid. It's constant. It's the very thrum of the universe, and once you truly get it, you never lose it. This is something I want everyone to get to feel. It's something that I truly believe would heal the human race if we could all understand it. It's something that must be learned, but the greatest teachers have been silenced through the ages. I am no great teacher, but maybe someday I will be, and right now the only thing I have to offer is my own journey so far. So, here I offer it.

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